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Chapter 8 - The Apartment on Federal

Grant did not tell anyone he was going.

He found the address in the employee file. Rosa Ramirez, 36, two dependents, residence: 1140 Federal Boulevard, Apartment 4C. He drove there on a Tuesday afternoon in a car he almost never used—a five-year-old sedan he kept for errands, because pulling up to that address in a Range Rover would have been an insult.

The building was a three-story walk-up with a cracked sidewalk and a rusted railing. The door to 4C had a mezuzah on one side and a small wooden cross taped on the other, which Grant stared at for a long time before he knocked.

Sofia answered.

She was thirteen, tall for her age, with her mother's sharp eyes and a scar on her chin. She had a cast on her right wrist—fresh.

"Can I help you?"

"Hi. I'm Grant. I'm—"

"I know who you are." She didn't move. "You're the guy from the ballroom."

"I am."

"My mom's at work."

"I know. I came to see you, actually."

Sofia's eyes narrowed. "Why?"

"Because Leo got bullied at school because of my daughter."

She was quiet for a moment. Then she stepped back.

"Come in."

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The apartment was small and clean. It smelled like cumin and laundry soap. There were two bedrooms, a galley kitchen, and a living room with a couch, a TV, and a small bookshelf packed with paperbacks. On the wall above the couch were three photographs: Rosa at a wedding, a man in a baseball cap with a little girl on his shoulders, and Leo as a baby.

On the coffee table was a foam roller and a resistance band.

Sofia sat on the couch and pulled one leg up under her. "So. What do you want?"

"To apologize."

"That's it?"

"That's part of it."

"What's the rest?"

Grant sat down in the chair across from her. It was low and sagging. He felt like a giant in a dollhouse.

"I want to know what your mother did when you were hurt."

Sofia looked at him. She didn't ask why.

"You mean the exercises," she said.

"I mean everything."

She leaned back. For a long moment she studied him like she was deciding whether he was worth the effort.

"Okay," she said.

And she told him.

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She had fallen from the tree at nine years old, trying to get to the top branch. Three fractures in her left leg, one in her hip. Eight weeks in a wheelchair, then four months on crutches. The doctors had told Rosa that Sofia might always walk with a limp. They had said the hip might not heal right. They had used the word lifelong.

Rosa had worked two jobs. She had come home at eleven at night and done physical therapy with Sofia in the living room every single night, whether Sofia wanted to or not. She had set a timer for twenty minutes. She had made Sofia stand, then sit, then stand, then sit, then stand again. She had held her under her arms and walked her in tiny circles around the coffee table.

"She used to cry," Sofia said. "And my mom would say, cry and walk. And I'd cry and walk. And then one day I wasn't crying. And then one day I wasn't holding on."

"And Leo?"

"Leo was six." She smiled a little. "He used to do this thing where he'd put on music and dance around me. He couldn't sit still. And one night I got so annoyed I stood up just to tell him to stop."

Grant laughed.

"That's the truth," Sofia said. "It wasn't magic. It wasn't his promise. It was that he was annoying enough that I forgot I was supposed to be broken."

She looked at Grant.

"Your daughter isn't broken."

"I know."

"Do you?"

Grant didn't answer.

"The problem isn't her legs," Sofia said. "The problem is she thinks she's bad. That's what Leo says. He says she thinks she did something wrong and now she has to be punished."

"She told him that?"

"She didn't have to. He just knows." Sofia shrugged. "Kids know."

Grant stared at the foam roller on the table.

"Can I ask you something?" he said.

"Sure."

"When you were in the chair—did you ever think it was your fault?"

Sofia was quiet for a long moment.

"Yeah," she said. "For about a year."

"What made it stop?"

She looked at him like the answer was obvious.

"My mom told me it wasn't." She picked at the cast on her wrist. "I didn't believe her the first time. Or the second. But she kept saying it. Like every day. And then one day I did."

Grant sat with that.

"You should tell her every day," Sofia said.

"I tried once."

"Once isn't every day."

He looked up. She was thirteen years old and she was looking at him with the flat, patient pity of someone who had already learned the lesson he was still failing.

"Okay," he said.

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Rosa came home while he was still there.

She stopped in the doorway with her keys in her hand. She looked at Grant. She looked at Sofia. She looked at the coffee cups.

"What is this?"

"I came to apologize," Grant said.

"For what?"

"For what I said on the phone. About fixing things." He stood up. "You were right. I can't buy this. I don't want to buy this."

Rosa set her keys on the counter. She was tired. He could see it in her face in a way he hadn't seen before—the specific exhaustion of a woman who had been on her feet for nine hours and still had two children to feed.

"Then what do you want?"

"I want to know if there's a way to do this that doesn't hurt your family."

Rosa looked at Sofia. Sofia looked at Rosa. Something passed between them.

"Leo can go on Saturdays," Rosa said finally. "When I'm not working. And you don't pay me. And if it ever gets to be too much for him, we stop. No argument."

"Okay."

"And you don't come here again without calling."

"Okay."

"And Mr. Hollis—"

"Grant."

She stopped. She looked at him. Then she almost smiled.

"Grant," she said. "You should probably go."

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He went.

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